Right now I need to write. I don't know why or what, I just need this. I've got this.. strange feeling that something's terribly wrong. And that I can't to anything about it. I just get this awful feeling sometimes, it feels like there's a big.. hole inside of me. Like something's missing, a part of me has fallen off and I can't find it. And even if I find it, I can't place it somewhere. I'm just a mess, not really knowing what to do. I don't want to feel like this, but still I can't get rid of this feeling. Maybe I should just sleep.